So everything just kind of fell apart tonight. I was incredibly excited as my wife was accompanying me to a show (she is not the music junkie I am and usually has to be in front of a classroom the next day so she cannot attend). This was a huge outdoor venue type show, which are not my favorite with the crowds and all. (There is nothing like seeing a band at a small capacity place of 150 people.) Anyway and we get stuck by these total a-holes who just decide to drink, blow smoke at us and continue to rudely squish into our minimal standing space.
My wife is not shy and confronts them about them edging us out. They were unsympathetic and gave this what do you want us to do look. The whole situation just rips me up because one of my largest faults is that I can be overly passive. This is not a good thing when I am on my own but I try and deal with it and be assertive when I can (admittedly this has been very tough for me to learn). When my wife and I get into a situation together though it becomes a huge problem because I will just give stupid dumbfounded looks and steer clear of any type of confrontation. This is where I am supposed to be supportive but I fail!
I totally let her down tonight. When the group of people next to us were arguing with her, did I come to her aide, nope I stood there tongue tied. I could not think of a single thing to say. I need to get assertive and quick. Letting down the person you care about most is the absolute worst feeling in the world. Stange as it sounds, I can deal with the pain of letting myself down but letting her down is like no other pain.
(Sorry this blog cannot always be hijinx)
